Saturday, December 19, 2009
Hello bloggie! (: I'm awake and late for jogging though. I'm supposed to meet Ken Heng but late! RAH! I guess everything for me this few days seems weird. I do not know what should I type out?? hahas.. (: I got a birthday gift from jie jie sarah! (: THANKS!! ((: let me see... what else I wanted to type??? LOL... (: Oh yes! I will share something from my heart...
Actually yesterday I was in church from 1pm till 9+pm... I feel really dead in serving in the E-Tag system and somehow feel like a burden?? I do not know why I'm feeling that way and yesterday a team of megalife volunteers came and volunteer? I guess the first thing pop out in my heart was that I feel so frustrated and build a boundaries between them... I do not know why a sudden feeling just pop out... RAH! painful painful.. Have I let go of the pain already?? I guess the reason why I felt that maybe because I met someone in the past who abandon me as a friend because of the backstabbing happen?? The person who comes my house and eat all the food up within a day?? I dont know... so sad!! Let's move back to the topic of burden in E-Tag System ministry. I guess maybe because of the welcome team ministry dispersing. I do not know isit because God don't want this ministry to go on anymore?? I started up and is closing down. What have I done wrong?? Why must all this happen?? I guess maybe I'm using my own strength... I guess sometimes I do pray over it but maybe I'm relying too much on my own strength to run... No one there to guide me since I become a christian... No one teach me how to lead! haish... wo hao shang xing ah... I will leave it to God to do what He want. He is God, who am i to say about His plan?? Ben Move on...
YES! I'm leaving to church soon... (: CIAOZ~
changeme.
9:01 AM
Thursday, December 17, 2009
hello blog =D I'm up so late and wondering what I'm doing now. I guess yesterday was a rather simple day for me and nothing much to do day once again (: I guess only when the clock hits about 3 plus in the afternoon, I head out for my drums lesson. it was fun! (: I was learning something new with right hand on 1 e n and left hand ghost notes together with the e n of the right hand. Coordination is something i struggle for myself and hope I will work hard! (: hees! JIAYOU BEN! (: BEN LOVE DRUMS! =D I guess after that I head home and had dinner that was cooked by my bro and soon after that head to grandma house. It was a torture! I had to eat extra dinner? RAH! (: As soon as that happens, I switch on my MAC and msn and facebook away! (: WAHAHHAS! (: it is so awesome! (: I guess after that nothing much was done. I guess I managed to talk to a girl I've been wanting to talk since Rayi Raya last time =D I'm helping her fix her comp if possible?? SO JIAYOU! (: she is rather cute... (: I guess I still sms-ing her abit. nothing much! (: I hope I can know her as a friend and im happy! (: thats all for the day...
A reflection for myself for yesterday... Prayer really seems powerful but something happened to me I donno isit just by coincidence or what... When I was needing to go out, the rain stopped so nicely and the road just looks almost dry up! It happens everytime and I guess was God telling me that He loves me that He won't mind doing all this for me? I do not know is this is my funny thoughts about it but I just feel something special about each and every occasion. It happened twice to me... What I had in mind, was just like God knows my timing and He do it best for me. An example would be I needed to go out at 3.3o and it ran so heavily at 3pm? I was like omgooshie! thats so bad! but he stop the rain even before needed to go out time? I do not know what it meant... I believe that God is teaching me something? I hope so... just a doubt in my heart but I know this will not be just a coincidence??
changeme.
12:17 AM
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
hey blog (: I'm back to update since I got nothing much to do... I guess I don't know what I'm feeling right now... Tired? bored? I guess this holidays is good to have but somehow with no plans of what you want to do can be boring :(... I'm now facing the computer after I took a good 3 hours nap. I hope that it will be okay and my body is happy. I'm feeling kind of grouchy right now heh maybe because I'm not going for the party tonight with my poly friends? I rejected not going becos of $$. No $ No talk in this world... lol anyway I hope that things will go happy for them as I just eat with my family for dinner. yawns! boring tuesday! lol...
To reflect about today morning, I guess I actually pray to God (: He answered my prayers immediately. POWER MAN! lol (: I guess I was waiting for queue really patiently but somehow I was like decided to pray, I hope that the queue can go faster God... It came true and the queue went fast den I expected... lol so dont underestimate prayer huh! lol... this is just a small testimony worth remembering about me and God... maybe a love story?? LOL! It sounds pretty weird though... I hope this would help me remind myself more about God's love (:
I guess I'm preparing to go my ah ma house (: ciaoz!
changeme.
4:16 PM
Monday, December 14, 2009
Hello blog (: I haven't updated it for a long time... I guess I have deleted all my old post from my blog because i want to leave the past behind and move on! (: I hope that it will a better year ahead for me in 2010... (: I guess I do not know what to update now as it is late and my brain is CRAMP! lol... (: I will stop here for now and blessed night to all my friends! (: CIAOZ~
changeme.
11:15 PM